Passion?

today's meeting was really smth different... and i'm thinking of my Passions... Chris' words made me think alot... was in thought while i was on my way back home..
Chris was curious of my passion that i used to had for Chinese Orchestra.. frankly speaking, the passion is gone. Overnight.
somewhere in between went wrong.. someone fused the passion out in me. i really duno wat i can do to find back the lost passion.. i feel bad to see my erhu at my house.. i felt that i had let it down, my erhu its like a slient instrutment. it can no longer produce anymore music.
maybe becoz... zQ, mag they all weren't there anymore.. justin and the rest... and ivan..
the time we spent during saturdays... were mostly, co, dinner together, hang out, slack. but now its like..
its now more of a like, than a passion to me... maybe i need some time to cool it off before i can re-light my passion for music. =)

and my life.. i think i've lost my heart somewhere too.. last night i show yun a sms.. she didn't say anything too.. sometimes i really feel like killing all the guys out there. Last night, Keith was at my house. he bought me birthday presents. =) Realy thanks. butterflies series.. heh adding to my collections. its the thoughts that counts.
my dad was drunk, both men were drinkin and talking.. hmmm its my dad talking and keith listens.. ended up he need to take a cab back, in a not a sober state of mind.
my dad bought ivan up and he roughly talked about it. for like 1min?! i was like =.="

i still dun feel right about it.