almost done with 2015

we are in the mid month of 2015.

i would say,

2015 is an emotional ride for me.

from getting shark,
to losing it.

to struggle with home issues.
to settling it down with a logical mind.


i think let's close the chapter for shark.
since he had chosen to sacrifice himself to keep his family,
i wished him all the best.

no matter how much the wife posted the family photos.
somehow i felt, its just for the kids.

maybe i knew too much.

i will just keep the memories.

and things aren't really smooth sailing for my marriage.

the Sister issues had become our issues.

some knew about our BTO.
some knew what happened
and those who knew find it ridiculously ridiculous.

she "took over the BTO"
but she is statying there on Fridays nights thru Sunday afternoon.

and she is back with us at on Sunday afternoon to Thursday.

most of them will ask "what's the point" or give me a "duh face"
which i had internally and mentally rolled my eyes balls on this issues.

seriously what is the point.

anyway.
from the way the family deal with issues with their thinking skills.
i think they sucks a big time.

no point to rant over them again.
i just want to be happy.

ben and i seems to be on the downside of the marriage as the prick is this house issue and the sister.

it suddenly stop.

all thanks to the appearance of Eason.

the focus was on Eason.
and i glad that its Eason.

now, we are waiting for the arrival of Eason.

As i thought 2015 will end in a good note.

we decided to buy new car after scraping the old one.
we can managed the loan.
but being parents.
Ben's parents offered us a loan.
but the loan made us stuck in between. because the amount offered was half of the loan we are short off.

and im amazed that his father opened his mouth to ask me to ask my father for the shortfall.

what are they thinking?

is borrowing money just so easy?
and im borrowing money to purchase luxury item.
a car is a want, not a need.

i didn't even use my dad's money for my private uni degree.
if you want it,
earn it.

that's simple.

their thinking are so different from my parents.

anyway.. cut the long story short.
i just find it nonsense.

everytime i tried to hint ben about what his parents are doing to his nieces and i had expressed my dismay.

because that will happen on Eason.
which is why i want to bring Eason to my parents place.
i can expressed my feelings when they spoilt Eason too much.
but i can't do that to Ben's parents.

to sum things up.
2015 is another year filled with experience and growing up.

i had believed i've grew wiser.
learning how to deal with issues logically.
and lucky Ben is able to digest my view.

i hope we can conquer more issues as there are no prefect marriage.
only through overcoming obstacles will strengthen the bond of the marriage.

i can't change the environment.
but i can change myself to be better so that the environment is not a concern for me.

bjy fighting fighting!