letting go

i really can't bring myself to look at him.

i can feel my pain.

i can't bring myself to talk to him.

i can feel my pain.

i can't bring myself to msg him for work issues.

i can feel my pain.

maybe its true.
its all or nothing for us.

i can't forget the feeling.
im done with the memories.

and i can't find the balance.

i do miss him once a while.
and i jolly well know that im using this fish to create new or better, to overwrite the memories.

but..
its just not the same.