drinking & fishes

last night,
was at WM company event.

in fact, there was this tiny hope i can wish i can see Shark.

Fish is there.

and i saw.. my Pri scH frd.

we felt smth is not right,

i spotted him while he is playing Pool with his frds.

he was shocked to see me.
and i was sad that he saw me in such state when im growing out my hair.

most ppl i saw last night was telling me to keep my hair long.
i told them,
yeah. will stop at shoulder length.

anyway,
we drank alot.
and Fish.. is trying his best to swim ard me.
somehow i felt he missed?

i've also let him know that im not worthy of his attention.
he knows and i guess he cam't help it.

he admit that he wanted to say smth to me but he withdrew his words.

he was upset that i didn't get to say Byebye to him.

back to my pri sch frd..

he is still staying behind my parents hse.
and he was suggesting that we share cab back.
i rejected cause one of the WM ppl going to send me back.

not to forget,
my long-term is ard.
we had officially like been tgt lke years.

he is the only one i know,
who says "i love u"

and i can feel that i do have some priorities over his ppl.

maybe because of opposite attracts,
and they are attracted to me.

even SK start to bullshit me.
how i wished Shark is around so that he can fend him away from me.