Some one know me better den I do

He made me aware of my feelings towards him.

The excitement,

The attention,

And the eagerness;

To see him, listen and touch him.

I've been not trying to hold his hands

But last night while he send me back, 

He comfort me and enlighten me on certain issues.

He pat my head, stare at me and hold my hands.

It was that kind of warmth that I need.

The unspoken one.

Which I realized I need two types of people to match my needs.

I need the childish one, so that we can have fun and grow together; I also need the mature one, so that we can work and achieve goals together.

I think I've found t.

Now I just need to convert my feelings towards this mature man to friendship.

I think it will b a challenge to me, because we are fully aware of each other feelings towards one another.

He said he is very comfortable with me. And he tends to talks and get emotional when he is alone with me.

This is the original us.

We used to talk and share our problems.

But now... No. There is this, unknown pressure and feeling we both know that  we cannot proceed further. 

He is having a hard time, but I'm only have a hard time dealing with my emotions. He has a lot of things inside his head. I wished that he would be better.

One day, those people who take his kindness for granted or abused his trusted will have karma visiting at their door.

We said our goodbyes and seal it with a passionate kiss which I don't wan to stop. He intend the stop which I follow.

We need to stop. I'm pretty sure he got turned on, and I was craving for more of his kisses. It's very comforting.

I know I can't keep him because I've got Ben and I love Ben.

But my mind is all abt him. I really hope that I'm the woman beside him when he falls. I dun expect myself to be by his side when he succed. I can't be there. But I hope he will not forget abt me one day.