in the process of upgrading

i think im those with very high self -pride that i will not seek help from others unless im desperate or no choice but to depend on others.

i don't like to be the helpless one.

even i am,
i will make sure i will not be stuck in the same scenario again,

i want to be self-reliant and self-dependable.

cause i can only trust myself.

i dislike being the weakling

and i dislike ppl to dare me to get things done.


said that,
i would push myself to be better and stronger.

i crave my personality, to be better everytime when i need to grow.

i felt that sometimes,
im getting too strong.
that i duno how to be weak, and seek help

maybe its because of pride.

sometimes i felt that i need to be soft, and take a step back,
a lot of things will turn out to be better.

and i want to grow as a leader,
not as a boss.

i must be able to grow and motivate my team.

and..
im letting go of fish and shark.

i dun belong to the sea,
if i can cut of my connections with shark back then,
i can do it today, now.

its still the same,
its a one way effort and its not going anywhere.

i must be contented with what i have and appreciate it.