Emptied

I was listening to myself...

And I found that I still love Ben.

I wan to see him happy,

But on the flip side,

I missed dK. 

This is the first time I officially stated his name down cause I want to mention him and acknowledged this feeling and I want to forget him.

If that's possible. 

But it's getting harder each day. 

I told myself to reduce meeting them for drinking sessions.

I feel sad, 

But that's the way to go.

And I realized I'm emptied.

Very emptied. 

I had always put other ppl interests first and this is what I get.. Like what did I get back?

It's not rewarding but it's simple happiness.