space and time

now my in-laws are back.

im missing those personal time i have for myself.

glad that i took leave,
spend one night drinking,
spend two days relaxing, and fix the aircon issue.

my stomach flutters when i know his presence.
e.g, when i spot his car at the carpark..
or when he suddenly show up in my office again. (but with valid reason)

he was here, out of the blue as he is meeting my boss.

maybe he knows he is expecting me to be inside office,
but i wasnt there when he enter the office,
i was at toilet, and he is sitting at my table.
lucky,
my laptop shows the email.

and i asked him to shoo off, and he moved away.

and worse..
i just found out.
Fish know Shark.

i think i should stop.

its getting smaller and smaller.

and i told Shark,
the only way for me to let go completely is to tell me that he has no feelings for me.

he is refuse to say it.
i affirmed that this is the only way for me to let go of you completely.
because if you can say it out, means you meant it.
and when you meant it,
i take it.

Sound so simple, but its hard.
so hard.