Dermerits points

I've been trying very hard to shift my focus back on Ben. 

When things are getting back on track, minor things will happen,

Be it good or bad, 

There's a point system. 

When it's good. It accumulate.

And when it's bad , it deduct.

And the rate of deduction is higher (faster) than accumulation. 

And I tend to get unhappy easier, I've lost the little ger in me when I'm with Ben. 

It's hurting him as well as hurting me.

Maybe we are used to "Nevermind" and "forget about it" and which we didn't talks about it again and never mention about it. Things are moving but not forgetten. 

Getting over with it and forget abt it are both different issues.  

I thought I'm holding it. 

After today.... I'm thinkin of letting ago again