An unspoken story

time has been wasted,
youth has been lost,
hope has been dashed,
heart has been broken.

tis posting will speak on someone's behalf.
its not a counter post, nor an angry post.

let my bring u guys back, way back then.
its when most of us are still strangers.

5 years and 8months back,
Fun was the word,
New friends were picked up along the way.

Of coz life in Polytechnic was really fun,
Life without a uniform.
and of coz, when human beings are in a new place,
they tend to find new ppl, interesting ppl.. and then they will realize,
they fall in love.

Love was nv smooth, nv sweet and nv easy.
For Love is Patience, Love is kind, Love is forgiving.

i really admire this ger,
who's heart is so forgiving, so kind. i used to call her stupid. but that's her strength.

No girl will accept her man,
to fall for someone,
again and again.
to fall for another someone,
again and again.

do ur maths,
her forgave him fourth times..
i can't do that. i will just let go.

Soon it died down,
at the cost of my friendship with this ger.

years pass,
some incidents are recurrent,
its the same,
quarrels are like part and parcels of their lives.

i guess promises make her hold on,
hopes make her stronger.

his mother didn't really like her.
and it seems like nth can be done to improve the relationship.

3 years past,
and hoping things will changed when he stepped into the "boys to Men" world.
initially,
i guess there were some changes,
den back to sqaure ones.

and then, here come the decision-
to keep? or to throw..
efforts were wasted,
ended up the decision isn't to keep..

since then, expectations grew lesser, hopes are lesser.
She not only hurt herself physically, but mentally too.
its a torture,
depression find her.

is't she a strong ger?
she went thru and healed herself.

if that's me, i would have ended it.

once is enough,
once is enough to break her heart, damaged her body.

who knows,
it happened again.

is it Stupid or what??
the outcome is the same.
worse,
the guy didn't fork out the money first.

it takes to hands to clap,
and it takes YOUR hand to break her heart.

Where are all those "futures",
those "WE" World?

A relationship going 6 years,
is this what she gets??
Get angry.
Ask yourself,
What have u done.

yes, to you.
She asked whether i'm disappointed in you.
i said Yes, very...
remember what u said 2 years ago?
remember what u had done last year?
remember what u had promise to the mother?
remember what u suggested last Dec??

from ns, to ord..
to ur 1st job, to ur current 2nd job.
from singapore citizenship to s-pass..

i've just realized it always had been a "I"-world to you.

To think you can said that she is unreasonable.
Wake up!!
To think she can forgive your mistakes!

i cannot accept my bf to like my best friend,
i cannot accept my bf to like my best friend again.
i cannot accepy my bf who like other gers.
i cannot accept my bf to not to be there when i need those emotional supports,
i cannot accept my bf who keeps thinking he is right all the time.
i cannot accept my bf who failed to keep his promises,
i cannot accept my bf to act blur abt the ROM,
i cannot accept my bf to make me a killer twice.
i cannot accept my bf who doesn't speaks for me.
i cannot accept my bf who is just simply so selfish.
i cannot accept my bf who just play games or watching manga.
i cannot accept my bf not to save,
i cannot accept my bf whom my friends are not happy with.

For Love is kind.
she still waiting for you,
she is still thinking of you.

if u really want her,
pls do something.

i've said this many many times,
She needs You,
nOt me , or the rest of her friends.

Yes, Love is forgiving.
She still loves you..