changing of status

a simple sentence at a cost of my sleep..
can't really sleep..

there's a few things that's holding me back,
its really a bad feeling..
i duno..
can't really explain it out with words,
no words can describe my feelings.

excitement? not really,
sad? not really,
confused? maybe,
lost? i think so..

den there's nothing to be lost coz nth is gain..

its mind or heart..

it has been some time since someone really make me felt different.
maybe he is raised in the blond society, his view are different,
and indeed independent..
basically.. thats i'm happy with..

but i dun really sound happy..