hmm

firstly, so sorry to let keith waited for me 3 hours at woodlands. really sorry..

yup, i very sure that my priority list, my career come first, family/friends and love.. relationship to me now are not important. i'm very sorry to hurt you in such a way. i wasn't really aware that my defend for guys are that strong.
somehow i think kieth said something so true. u know la, true hurts.. i keep wondering, why do i have such a high defence..
i couldn't understand myself, and den fall asleep. hahaha keith called me later, but i was already sleeping.

i really like my current lifestyle, its not being free and easy. its the time i have for myself, i can do anything i want at anytime. can say that i'm really selfish, or you can say tat i really fear committments. haha i think that's one of the reason why i dun like to talk about "Our-Future". i used to talk about that. but now, i guess no matter how beautiful the picture is, i just dun want to think and hope for it. its not that i will not work for it, just that i dun wan to get disappointed. Gers remembered ALOT of words that a guy said..

As for things such as personal affections, i duno. ivan used to complain about that too. i dun like those. i dun whats wrong with me this time, but i just don't like. it made ivan so angry, but i still stick to it.

what i'm really sure it that i'm not confused about myself. =)
but i guess i need alot of time for myself