6 days more

count dowm really sux, some times hope that time flys yet some times praying that time dun fly, it crawls.. right here.. i'm kinda stoning.. duno whY. i juz finished playiny insaqurium deluxe version.. haha the graphics are much more nicer and cuter. but i had to rush BMD project all by myself.. Since my cousins Are here.. today is my Ah-Gong death anniversary.. so of coz pack.. coz they hardly pray to my ah-gong. coz ah gong is at my house and they are only free on weekends.. so i guess... today. my ah gong is the most happy, coz he got to see his great-grand-daughter.. ^^v today's lunch was a feast.. strangely i dun have the craving as what i had in school.. well i duno.. den dinner was the same coz too much food le.. i guess tml's dinner will have today's left over bah... Curry chicken, fried chicken, sea cumber.. blah blah blah ya.. and fried prawns.. haha really kinda envy ah-gong coz he is respected in my family.. ^^v i woke up today to find out that is ah gong death anniversary.. so i had to sms queenin that i'm not meetin her le.. maybe its fate ba.. i'm stuck at home with BMD.. almost done... its my work.. and Hubby seems to be busy.. or maybe he thinks tat i'm busy.. who cares??
feelings starts to fade, as peaceful as my world, nothing is to be felt, nothing is to be seen. Only darkness conquers, not u, not him. a ray of hope doesn't help. a prayers dun create miracles. u create what u r. u.. the roots of all problems.. impossible to change, maybe.. maybe not. that's life. No hand offer helps, why always me?