last day of Oct

its shark's birthday.
and last night i was invited to the birthday celebration.

i wanted to go.
but my mind stopped me.

i could had cancelled the dinner and join them for the celebration.

i guess i need to make it clear that things are different and i had packed up my feelings and thoughts.
focusing only what i need to.
not i want to.

i've learnt to get go of what is not meant to be yours.
its not worthy again.

mehmeh is very active.
and everyday is just a bonding with him.
wondering how is he.
and wondering when he will kick again.

i've shifted my focus to mehmeh so that i will not think of other things.

well..
my heart was aching that my mind had took over and i didn't turn out last night.

it was more den a birthday celebration.
at least he can see how much of his staff likes me. =)