work life balance

i still feel tired.

but not that tired as compared to the first trimester.

im having food aversion.
and im more of fruits den vegs.
and simply can't resist meat.

when BabyM is out.

btw, its name babyM because M= Monkey, M=Mini, M=Meh Meh.

in a way,
its either born in the lunar year of sheep, or monkey. its either a mini Me or Mini Ben.

its fun when there's 2 sides to both apart from guessing the gender.

i really hope babyM is a boy.
because i will not take toys and clothes from the sister.

i had enough of her habits as she has this victim mindset and she deems as things by default shld be attend to her priorities.

i think that BabyM is a gift,
so that i can focus on BabyM and not the sister and my house.

i just want to give the best for babyM including being Happy.

now im pretty short fuse because i just can't stand things which i don't like.
its either my way or the high way.

this is also the best time for me to shape ben and his thoughts.
i dislike ppl giving me opinions and options.
they can never be me in shoes and i had never seek for "help" or "suggestions"

its a fact but im strong and independent.

its all abt me and BabyM when we go for our routine gynae  visit elsewhere you will see couples.

i think ppl will judge but its ok.
i don't owe anyone reasons.

i hope BabyM is independent just like me and i really hope things turn out my way.

and of coz,
to settle my cravings (steak) after babyM is out.

and i can study my Masters.

jiayou BabyM!