moving forward

i'm learning to drive manual car.

wasting money all over again to have a manual car driving license.

and my boss will give me a van.

its a good thing afterall.

i want to tell him that i can handle multiple sites and handle my team well.

im taking this as a chance to show him that i can.

i've break the news to my regular drinking kakis.
they asked me if im prepared.
well, the truth is,
im not. i'm not that excited.
im not that forward looking.

one told me that i shld hold on because of the kid.
and he asked me a few questions and i told him.
it come at the wrong time. when things are messy and it juse dissolve because of a new life.

monday its the second appt to the gynae.

its a different feeling which i had felt that i will need to change my lifestyle.

its all about the new life and alot of ppl tend to give alot of advise because of hear-say.

i appreciate simpler encouraging words like
"enjoy the journey"

rather den,
"you cannot do this," "you cannot do that" "you cannot eat this" "you cannot walk alot"

ya.
right.

den put me at home and rest.
times had changed
i need to work and move.
it doesn't mean tht because of bumped and i have exclusions.

life is the same.
nothing changed.
i carry on to do the same things.

just listen to your body.
you will know what to do.

i stop running, stop walking fast.
it just happen.
my tastebuds changes and i dun really eat food like what i used to eat.

i dun listen to the rest but myself.
i just feel so turn off when ppl just tell me to stop doing certain things
and most of them come from non-mummys.

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