when my mind thinks and speaks

i wasn't happy over the weekend.

i was peeved,
i cannot stand hunger more than 2hours.

and i flared up.
it was from late breakfast to mid lunch.

and im to the last action of stepping out of the house when i msg ben and i told him if he still didn't tabao my food, i would go out and find food myself. and that was 1.30pm. i was awake at 10am.

roll and rot on my bed and i finally wake up and wash up.

i didn't see what i like.
i dun like chocolate bread.

anyway,
it was a horrible day.

cut the story short.

the word "divorce" is on my mind.

until this morning,

i realized, its all matter about me.

i can just forget about shark.
what he is doing now, which he is doing nth.
Is the best for Us.

We can't move forward with this.
we need to straighten this.
and we will be friends again.

and i need him.
he knows me more than i know myself.
i need a third party to guide me along the way.

and Shark is the one.

just that sometimes he is just too cold when he is sober and too warm when he is drunk.


apart from this,
i need to cut off fish.
he is a nice catch,
enjoys all the good things.
very tempting.

if i want to save this marriage,
i need to save myself.

but this is all inside my mind.

all i can say,
my heart is empty right now.