lost

as the days goes..

my mind gets clearer,
my heart gets heavier.

im slowly aware of what i want or what i need.

i need someone who is just more stronger than me.

i dont want to babysit someone.
although by showing care and concern and overdoing too much its just a simple line.

i don't want to be leader back at home.
its tiring when i need to be one while am at work.
and im maintaining my attitude while im back home.

sometimes i just need a little scream.
sometimes i just need a little hug,
and say, "its alright, i've got U"
sometimes i just want to stop solving problems.
sometimes i just want to soak myself inside the pool.

sometimes..
i just need to be ME.

i need a little space,
a little breathing space for me to rethink and react.

i start not to appreciate things happening around me.
i start to lose interest things around me.