the ending of Feb

 feb was a month of positiveness

a month to welcome a new feeling of Luck, and of coz Love.

and it was getting overwhelming.

to have familiar faces, appearing again.
as usual..
its mostly guys again.
smth like..
duh

someone gave me flowers..
but i threw it away.

i find it silly to hold flowers, which they dun signify much value to me.
i dun like to get impressed by boys,
coz its just superficial.
and i dun have a value to them.
they just can go look for ready available gers out there.

i haven't been exercising. getting tired.

they rumored.. bonus..
i haven't see it yet.
its getting more demoralizing

but im more interested in the pay increment.

i wanna see how much they are willing to offer to keep me.

i was very upset and emotion when CO scold me for the things that i've done.
it just appeared its my problem.
he listen to my voice over the phone.
there were a long pause and i finally crack a sound out.

i was doing more things den i was supposed to be. and that was my return.

Lucky he try to help me back, i think its to make me feel better

when i refuse to help, he said my attitude change. because i wanna quit liao.

u see la..

they get used to it.
with the help around.. things moved.. but they take this as the standard.
but this is not the contractual service standard.
its the extra mile standard.

im missing those times,
when we drink and dance on the platform.

when i can do it again?